It takes a village to raise a pilot. And when I say village I mean that the "How to Be A Better American"/"This Little Piggy" operation is starting to look like a compound. Two buildings and a dozen offices. Lots of hard working and earnest looking people coming and going. Some of them pacing around each other in a parking lot, repeating a script to themselves as if their lives depended on it. All we're missing is an apocalyptic religious vision and five crates of automatic weapons. Perhaps we're not ready to get into a stand off with the FBI just yet, but there are moments when I could see myself instructing Andrew, our office PA, to put down the Trader Joe's bags, hand me the peanut M&M's and ready himself to, "smite our enemies with the fifty cal we mounted near the post production offices."
Okay, that went into a weird place. I apologize. Here's the real blog...
I once described my life as an actor/writer as a long series of slightly desperate job interviews with some spec work in between to break up the monotony. And I was reminded of the truth of that statement this week. Because this was a week of hiring (or rejecting) lots of people. Dozens of aspiring PA's, creative folks, designers, actors and accountants all passed through our door. And their earnest and hopeful faces are burned into my thinking meat. Some left happy and relieved and others left with that "fuck... what did I do wrong?" look on their mugs. But that's the name of the game I suppose. And while this particular aspect of producing can be either joyful or sad, it's never boring.
Quick example (and this actually took place last week). We had one gentleman come into interview with us for a very important position. I won't say what the position was, but I will say this: many jobs on a television show do not require you to enjoy the material being presented. It's not absolutely necessary for the grip, camera operator, transportation guy or the lady that makes those rad cookies for the the crafty table to be super invested in the story. But it's kind of a basic requirement for the job that this turd was vying for. If we hired him we would be working every day with him on the most intimate and important details of the project. So there was a part of me (and not even a desperate, needy part) that wanted him to open with something like, "Great script guys. It's really funny." Instead this man flopped on the couch in my office and proceeded to make snarky comments about the state of comedy, TV execs and humanity in general. He rambled on with the bitterness of a bored college professor who is still kicking himself for taking that first teaching gig instead of staying in Paris with that hot waitress and finishing his novel. It was an amazing thing to behold. He clearly didn't want to be in the room with us, or possibly, to be working in television at all. And of course, in observance of my personal policy of needing to be liked by EVERYONE, the more horrible the interview became, the more I seemed to prolong it.
Now in polar opposition to this miserable man is every single actor in Hollywood. They don't flop on couches and look bored. They look ridiculously eager, and in some cases, straight up crazy. They don't just want this job, they want every acting job available. And your job. And to be loved. And to prove things to doubting family members back home. This, of course, can manifest itself in some pretty weird behavior. Some enter like they were shot out of a cannon after smoking a ton of meth. Anxious and tweaky, they come at you so hard that you start readying yourself for a physical fight. And then there are those that arrive in a hurry and unprepared. They march through the audition with all the passion of a 43 year old truck stop prostitute plying her trade in a sleeper cab. And still others just seem angry. One man spent five minutes telling us how the previous actor (a well known guy) had "taken" every role from him for last five years. He read the audition piece very, VERY sadly and then walked out mumbling to himself.
But these are the exceptions. Most people we interview are highly qualified and excited to work. And 97.45% of the actors that audition are amazingly talented. It's actually very encouraging. And as far as I can tell, the thing that makes the difference in whether we hire, reject, call back or dismiss someone has nothing to do with talent. Instead it is usually some aspect or essence in the person that just sets them apart. You can look at resumes all day, but ultimately it comes down to the "right" person walking in the door. It's a kind of magic that can't really be quantified but it's critical. Because, all other things being equal, I need to be able to see myself working with this person for months... and in success... years. In short, we need to click in some way. It's not something an actor can prepare for or "do better". It just is. And though that might seem a little capricious (or even unfair), it should really be a balm to all those folks auditioning or interviewing. After all this whole fucking thing is basically just one big crap shoot.
That being said, it wouldn't kill some of you to put on deodorant. Or, conversely, to take it easy on the very, VERY powerful perfume you're wearing. Don't be an hour late. Don't insult the script. And try to make a little eye contact. Also, don't be someone who was a huge douche bag to me two years ago and then pretend, awkwardly, that we are pals. That's kind of turns my stomach. Anyway, those are just some tips.
As always, the previous blog is full of typos and mistakes.
Also... I love you.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
THE PROCESS
Friday, February 5, 2010
It's 5:22am. 5-fucking-22am! Can't sleep. Instead I am wide awake and wondering if the CELEBRITY FILM STAR we made an offer to yesterday is really the best choice for our lead. There are half a dozen reasons why I think he's not. So why am I hoping and praying that he reads our script and accepts our offer? That, my friends, is the strange math of pilot season.
Someone commented on the scant bloggery that I've already posted, saying how excited they were that I might be "demystifying" the pilot process. But I have to say, after only a week in the trenches, the notion that I am going to be able to untangle the knobby, chunky, clusterfuck of making a television pilot is kind of hilarious to me. I mean sweet Jeebus, even that last sentence contained a mixed metaphor. It started out in the "trenches" of a war and then wandered into untying "knobby knots". What does that even mean? Is pilot season like being a World War I soldier, sitting in a fetid, blood drowned trench in the middle of battle, desperately trying, for some reason, to untie a very, very badly knotted length of rope? Well, actually, that's not bad. I mean it's not great. But I think it actually goes a fair distance toward describing how it feels some times.
Though that description might be just the tiniest bit dramatic (it's very early), there are a lot of moving parts (metaphor) involved. A lot of considerations to consider. A lot of angles to be calculated (metaphor). And everyone... I MEAN EVERYONE... has an opinion about what you should do. Uh, oh... this is the part of the screed where I tell you how idiotic TV execs are. Get ready for a hard core evisceration of the empty headed turds that run the television industry. Nope. Not happening.
I'm going to do something BOLD here and admit that I think a lot of television executives are pretty darned smart. The vast majority of them are very good at their jobs and have a lot to contribute to the process. The problem isn't their intelligence. The problem is the sheer NUMBER of them. There are so many people allowed to contribute to the process, and all of them want...no... NEED to be heard. And each of these myriad people have a theory as to the best way to proceed. And each of those theories sounds more reasonable than the last. They all have a good point. Well, not all. That's just crazy. But a surprising number of the people involved have an excellent point to make. And seemingly all of those people leave messages with our assistant (yes we have one... his name is Jeff) asking us "to return" as soon as possible so that they can avail us of their excellent idea. Now add to this the brutal fact that any one of these people can, at any moment, get their feelings hurt and throw a wrench into the works (metaphor) and very quickly one can see that, in this environment, making anything resembling a funny half hour of television can be, well, tricky.
It's no wonder that they refer to this whole bunch of shenanigans as a "PROCESS". That is not a very fun word. Think about it for a moment. What else has a process? Making plastic golf tees has a process. Extruding and shaping chicken McNuggets has a process. Paying your taxes, getting divorced, selling a car and anything to do with the legal system are all about process. Your script and best wishes go in one side of this thing and a comedy show come out the other. And what happens in between? (SHIVER)
And here's the sickest part of it: I LOVE IT. I mean I don't LOVE it like I love my daughter or my wife or scallops. But I kind of dig being a part of it. It's never boring and it's better than dancing with old ladies at a retirement home (which I did). And it pays nicely. I haven't been in this very long, but a strategy for dealing with this whirlwind (metaphor) is starting to take shape. The key, it seems, is to keep listening to your gut. It's pretty clear when something feels right or, conversely, when it feels really WRONG. And when your gut is telling you that the thing you're being asked to do or change is incorrect, you have to stand up for yourself. You have to push back. You have to, politely and with respect, defend your show. At least until it becomes very clear that standing up for yourself is a pointless bit of masturbation which will only leave your career in a crumpled heap (metaphor). At that point, the best you can do, is put your head between your knees, exhale and submit yourself to THE PROCESS.
Actual Progress This Week:
2 directors, 2 line producers, 2 casting directors, 1 assistant, 1 PA hired.
Offers out to a lead for "How To Be Better American"
Test deals set up for several actors on "This Little Piggy"
And there's still all of Friday to go. Not too shabby.
PS
This thing is probably lousy with typos and stuff. But you get the point.
It's 5:22am. 5-fucking-22am! Can't sleep. Instead I am wide awake and wondering if the CELEBRITY FILM STAR we made an offer to yesterday is really the best choice for our lead. There are half a dozen reasons why I think he's not. So why am I hoping and praying that he reads our script and accepts our offer? That, my friends, is the strange math of pilot season.
Someone commented on the scant bloggery that I've already posted, saying how excited they were that I might be "demystifying" the pilot process. But I have to say, after only a week in the trenches, the notion that I am going to be able to untangle the knobby, chunky, clusterfuck of making a television pilot is kind of hilarious to me. I mean sweet Jeebus, even that last sentence contained a mixed metaphor. It started out in the "trenches" of a war and then wandered into untying "knobby knots". What does that even mean? Is pilot season like being a World War I soldier, sitting in a fetid, blood drowned trench in the middle of battle, desperately trying, for some reason, to untie a very, very badly knotted length of rope? Well, actually, that's not bad. I mean it's not great. But I think it actually goes a fair distance toward describing how it feels some times.
Though that description might be just the tiniest bit dramatic (it's very early), there are a lot of moving parts (metaphor) involved. A lot of considerations to consider. A lot of angles to be calculated (metaphor). And everyone... I MEAN EVERYONE... has an opinion about what you should do. Uh, oh... this is the part of the screed where I tell you how idiotic TV execs are. Get ready for a hard core evisceration of the empty headed turds that run the television industry. Nope. Not happening.
I'm going to do something BOLD here and admit that I think a lot of television executives are pretty darned smart. The vast majority of them are very good at their jobs and have a lot to contribute to the process. The problem isn't their intelligence. The problem is the sheer NUMBER of them. There are so many people allowed to contribute to the process, and all of them want...no... NEED to be heard. And each of these myriad people have a theory as to the best way to proceed. And each of those theories sounds more reasonable than the last. They all have a good point. Well, not all. That's just crazy. But a surprising number of the people involved have an excellent point to make. And seemingly all of those people leave messages with our assistant (yes we have one... his name is Jeff) asking us "to return" as soon as possible so that they can avail us of their excellent idea. Now add to this the brutal fact that any one of these people can, at any moment, get their feelings hurt and throw a wrench into the works (metaphor) and very quickly one can see that, in this environment, making anything resembling a funny half hour of television can be, well, tricky.
It's no wonder that they refer to this whole bunch of shenanigans as a "PROCESS". That is not a very fun word. Think about it for a moment. What else has a process? Making plastic golf tees has a process. Extruding and shaping chicken McNuggets has a process. Paying your taxes, getting divorced, selling a car and anything to do with the legal system are all about process. Your script and best wishes go in one side of this thing and a comedy show come out the other. And what happens in between? (SHIVER)
And here's the sickest part of it: I LOVE IT. I mean I don't LOVE it like I love my daughter or my wife or scallops. But I kind of dig being a part of it. It's never boring and it's better than dancing with old ladies at a retirement home (which I did). And it pays nicely. I haven't been in this very long, but a strategy for dealing with this whirlwind (metaphor) is starting to take shape. The key, it seems, is to keep listening to your gut. It's pretty clear when something feels right or, conversely, when it feels really WRONG. And when your gut is telling you that the thing you're being asked to do or change is incorrect, you have to stand up for yourself. You have to push back. You have to, politely and with respect, defend your show. At least until it becomes very clear that standing up for yourself is a pointless bit of masturbation which will only leave your career in a crumpled heap (metaphor). At that point, the best you can do, is put your head between your knees, exhale and submit yourself to THE PROCESS.
Actual Progress This Week:
2 directors, 2 line producers, 2 casting directors, 1 assistant, 1 PA hired.
Offers out to a lead for "How To Be Better American"
Test deals set up for several actors on "This Little Piggy"
And there's still all of Friday to go. Not too shabby.
PS
This thing is probably lousy with typos and stuff. But you get the point.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
PANIC!!!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
This little missive is being typed up on the balcony of our room at the Hotel Del Coronado in San Diego. For those who don't know (or give a shit) this hotel is kind of famous. A lot of luminaries have shacked up here over the years, ranging from Charles Lindbergh to Madonna, blah, blah, blah. And it's expensive. Too expensive for the likes of Audrey and I. We should not be here. We are not rich. And we are neither the Prince of Wales nor Reese Witherspoon. Which brings me to the subject of this blog: panic. Let me explain.
So yesterday we met with Ted Wass in beautiful Beverly Hills, California. Ted has been working a long time in this whore's racket. He started as an actor (he was Blossom's dad and he played Danny Dallas on "Soap"), but somewhere along the line he got into directing. It was his directing services we were interested in. So, to that end, we sat down to chat with him over some eggs. Well, egg whites. This is L.A., nobody eats the WHOLE egg. Yolks are for assholes.
The short version of this is that Ted turned out to be awesome. He is funny, smart, thoughtful and fired up about the script for "This Little Piggy". We talked at length about what this show is about and how we'd like the story telling to take shape. And it was clear within about twenty minutes that Ted was the perfect guy to direct our show and that we'd be lucky to have him. Which is good, because I am pretty sure that everyone concerned (ABC Studios and NBC) had already decided this for us. Our meeting was just to make sure we didn't hate each other or something. And even if we did hate each other, I get the feeling they would have said, "work it out". That's exactly how much power Steven and I have. :)
So after shaking hands and parting ways I jumped back into my car and called Kevin Plunkett (not sure of Kevin's actual title... it's something like Senior VP of Comedy Series at ABC Studios) to let him know the good news. We chatted for a moment and Kevin, quite innocently said, "Well enjoy the rest of your weekend. I think this will be the last free one you have for a LONG time." And that, dear readers, is when my old friend PANIC showed up.
I hung up with Kevin and started thinking about all the stuff that has to be done in the next three months. PANIC! I also started thinking about the late nights, the bad food and the bleary eyed self-doubt that will slowly morph into self-loathing. PANIC! I thought about how little time I was going to be able to spend with Audrey. PANIC!!! And then I looked at the clock and started thinking about getting out of town. NOW! PANIC!!!
I got home, jammed the key into the lock, walked inside and found my beautiful wife sitting in her pajamas, hair askew and messing around on her laptop. She didn't look panicked. She looked fine. She looked like a normal person enjoying her Saturday morning. But that's because she couldn't see the oncoming shit storm like I could. So I calmed myself, sat down on the couch and started to make my case.
ME: Honey, let's go up to Santa Barbara today.
AUDREY: (NOT LOOKING AT ME) I don't want to go to Santa Barbara.
ME: (REMAINING CALM) Okay. Well I kind of wanted to get out of town today.
AUDREY: Let's go hiking.
Hiking? What the? NO! That's work. I wanted booze and expensive food. I wanted to relax. And, further more, she never suggests shit like that. What the hell was happening? This was not going well at all. PANIC!! I needed to get this shit back on track right away.
ME: (VERY, VERY CALMLY) No. I don't think I want to go hiking. How about horseback riding?
What the fuck!? Did I just suggest horseback riding? She looked at me like I'd suggested we throw ourselves into a wood chipper, and rightfully so. That is NOT getting things back on track. That's just crazy. I was more fucked up then I thought. Then I hit on it. The magic word: spa. Even the sound of it is relaxing. spaaaaa. Also, ladies love spas. This I know. And Spa, along with her sidekick Overpriced Booze, can totally kick Panic's ass. So I suggested it and before I could finish the word (a very short word, by the way) she was starting to pack. An hour and half later we were on our way to San Diego to spend too much money. Which we did. And now the blog, so there's that.
So here ends my first bout of panic on this journey. The first of many, many similar bouts I imagine. I know it's gonna get weirder before it gets better. And I'm not always going to be able to (or afford to for God's sake!) just pick up and get out of town. I'm actually gonna have to sack up and get these shows made. I want them to be great and I want them on the air. And sitting here, looking out at that ocean, I gotta say, I'm ready for it. I am. I think. I mean, more or less.
I need to go eat my feelings.
This little missive is being typed up on the balcony of our room at the Hotel Del Coronado in San Diego. For those who don't know (or give a shit) this hotel is kind of famous. A lot of luminaries have shacked up here over the years, ranging from Charles Lindbergh to Madonna, blah, blah, blah. And it's expensive. Too expensive for the likes of Audrey and I. We should not be here. We are not rich. And we are neither the Prince of Wales nor Reese Witherspoon. Which brings me to the subject of this blog: panic. Let me explain.
So yesterday we met with Ted Wass in beautiful Beverly Hills, California. Ted has been working a long time in this whore's racket. He started as an actor (he was Blossom's dad and he played Danny Dallas on "Soap"), but somewhere along the line he got into directing. It was his directing services we were interested in. So, to that end, we sat down to chat with him over some eggs. Well, egg whites. This is L.A., nobody eats the WHOLE egg. Yolks are for assholes.
The short version of this is that Ted turned out to be awesome. He is funny, smart, thoughtful and fired up about the script for "This Little Piggy". We talked at length about what this show is about and how we'd like the story telling to take shape. And it was clear within about twenty minutes that Ted was the perfect guy to direct our show and that we'd be lucky to have him. Which is good, because I am pretty sure that everyone concerned (ABC Studios and NBC) had already decided this for us. Our meeting was just to make sure we didn't hate each other or something. And even if we did hate each other, I get the feeling they would have said, "work it out". That's exactly how much power Steven and I have. :)
So after shaking hands and parting ways I jumped back into my car and called Kevin Plunkett (not sure of Kevin's actual title... it's something like Senior VP of Comedy Series at ABC Studios) to let him know the good news. We chatted for a moment and Kevin, quite innocently said, "Well enjoy the rest of your weekend. I think this will be the last free one you have for a LONG time." And that, dear readers, is when my old friend PANIC showed up.
I hung up with Kevin and started thinking about all the stuff that has to be done in the next three months. PANIC! I also started thinking about the late nights, the bad food and the bleary eyed self-doubt that will slowly morph into self-loathing. PANIC! I thought about how little time I was going to be able to spend with Audrey. PANIC!!! And then I looked at the clock and started thinking about getting out of town. NOW! PANIC!!!
I got home, jammed the key into the lock, walked inside and found my beautiful wife sitting in her pajamas, hair askew and messing around on her laptop. She didn't look panicked. She looked fine. She looked like a normal person enjoying her Saturday morning. But that's because she couldn't see the oncoming shit storm like I could. So I calmed myself, sat down on the couch and started to make my case.
ME: Honey, let's go up to Santa Barbara today.
AUDREY: (NOT LOOKING AT ME) I don't want to go to Santa Barbara.
ME: (REMAINING CALM) Okay. Well I kind of wanted to get out of town today.
AUDREY: Let's go hiking.
Hiking? What the? NO! That's work. I wanted booze and expensive food. I wanted to relax. And, further more, she never suggests shit like that. What the hell was happening? This was not going well at all. PANIC!! I needed to get this shit back on track right away.
ME: (VERY, VERY CALMLY) No. I don't think I want to go hiking. How about horseback riding?
What the fuck!? Did I just suggest horseback riding? She looked at me like I'd suggested we throw ourselves into a wood chipper, and rightfully so. That is NOT getting things back on track. That's just crazy. I was more fucked up then I thought. Then I hit on it. The magic word: spa. Even the sound of it is relaxing. spaaaaa. Also, ladies love spas. This I know. And Spa, along with her sidekick Overpriced Booze, can totally kick Panic's ass. So I suggested it and before I could finish the word (a very short word, by the way) she was starting to pack. An hour and half later we were on our way to San Diego to spend too much money. Which we did. And now the blog, so there's that.
So here ends my first bout of panic on this journey. The first of many, many similar bouts I imagine. I know it's gonna get weirder before it gets better. And I'm not always going to be able to (or afford to for God's sake!) just pick up and get out of town. I'm actually gonna have to sack up and get these shows made. I want them to be great and I want them on the air. And sitting here, looking out at that ocean, I gotta say, I'm ready for it. I am. I think. I mean, more or less.
I need to go eat my feelings.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
To start with...
I've been wanting to start a little blog for sometime. I don't know why. Self aggrandizement plays a large role, I suppose. But also, it would be nice to have a place to write things and keep my thoughts. You could easily say that a spiral notebook would probably suffice, but I would direct you to the aforementioned self aggrandizement. I want people to read this. There, I said it.
I'm starting this blog at an interesting time in my life. My writing partner Steven Cragg and I have, within the last two weeks, managed to get both of our scripts picked up for pilot at networks. One, "This Little Piggy" is for NBC and the other, "How To Be A Better American" is for ABC. This is a rare-ish accomplishment. That is to say, most writers (good writers) work very hard on shows and in development and never get a pilot order at all. So getting two in the same season feels like we did something special. Like finding a hundred dollar bill on the floor of a restroom or winning the trip for two to Ojai at a school raffle. It's not often done and hardly ever by two dopes with sketchy back grounds in the biz.
Compounding the weirdness is that one of the shows, "This Little Piggy" was ordered to pilot last year at ABC. After an insane journey of talent holds, extensions, a new deal for a re-write, etc they finally said "no thanks". Months later NBC came out of nowhere and asked if the show was still available. A week later we had a deal with them. And a month later a pilot order. Though this is not unheard of, it is a little unusual. And piling on to the weirdness, out of either oversight or just sheer confusion, NBC is allowing Steven and I to run the show ourselves. Meaning we won't have a supervising producer added to the team to "guide" us through the process. It's an amazing turn of events for us. Amazingly terrifying that is.
And it got a little weirder when, on Friday, ABC called and said they wanted to produce "How To Be A Better American" as well. My balls shot back up into my body and I started rocking back and forth like Rosemary Kennedy. Because, like old Rosie, my mind was blown. This was the unthinkable thing. Getting paid to write two pilots was amazing. Getting one of them picked up, was HUGE. But the notion of both of the shows getting a shot at production, well that just seemed like folly. The kind of thing you don't even allow yourself to ponder because it's so unlikely. In short, it was amazing.
So now we are faced with the prospect of producing two pilots in three months. That means casting, pre-production, re-writing, shooting and post.... times two. I received over a hundred emails on this subject yesterday. And my iphone got hot enough to make it uncomfortable to put next to my delicate little ears. There are so many decisions to be made. And all of them need to be made NOW! It's daunting to say the least.
But the other side of this is that I am happier then I have been since the birth of my daughter. This is literally what I've been working for (and then some) my entire life. I am overjoyed to have been given this chance and I want so much for it to all work out. I feel like it will too. I feel like this is where I'm supposed to be right now. Well, not RIGHT now. RIGHT NOW I should be in bed, but anxiety awakened me at about 3am and I couldn't get back to sleep. But in terms of the scope of my life, this is an amazing time and I intend to note it.
And I'll be doing all that "noting" right here. It's my intention to keep a blog/journal of the entire process. Warts and all. So please check back often and leave some comments. I need those comments. They're the only way I know I'm alive. :)
Okay... Today's Agenda (Saturday, January 30, 2010): a meeting with the actor/director Ted Wass who we are hoping will direct "This Little Piggy". We're meeting him at 10:30 for some breakfast and delightful chit-chat. Hopefully, by the end of it all, we'll have a director locked down. Plus he was on "Soap" years ago and I loved that show! And he was Blossom's dad... so there's that.
Here we go...
Thanks for reading!
I'm starting this blog at an interesting time in my life. My writing partner Steven Cragg and I have, within the last two weeks, managed to get both of our scripts picked up for pilot at networks. One, "This Little Piggy" is for NBC and the other, "How To Be A Better American" is for ABC. This is a rare-ish accomplishment. That is to say, most writers (good writers) work very hard on shows and in development and never get a pilot order at all. So getting two in the same season feels like we did something special. Like finding a hundred dollar bill on the floor of a restroom or winning the trip for two to Ojai at a school raffle. It's not often done and hardly ever by two dopes with sketchy back grounds in the biz.
Compounding the weirdness is that one of the shows, "This Little Piggy" was ordered to pilot last year at ABC. After an insane journey of talent holds, extensions, a new deal for a re-write, etc they finally said "no thanks". Months later NBC came out of nowhere and asked if the show was still available. A week later we had a deal with them. And a month later a pilot order. Though this is not unheard of, it is a little unusual. And piling on to the weirdness, out of either oversight or just sheer confusion, NBC is allowing Steven and I to run the show ourselves. Meaning we won't have a supervising producer added to the team to "guide" us through the process. It's an amazing turn of events for us. Amazingly terrifying that is.
And it got a little weirder when, on Friday, ABC called and said they wanted to produce "How To Be A Better American" as well. My balls shot back up into my body and I started rocking back and forth like Rosemary Kennedy. Because, like old Rosie, my mind was blown. This was the unthinkable thing. Getting paid to write two pilots was amazing. Getting one of them picked up, was HUGE. But the notion of both of the shows getting a shot at production, well that just seemed like folly. The kind of thing you don't even allow yourself to ponder because it's so unlikely. In short, it was amazing.
So now we are faced with the prospect of producing two pilots in three months. That means casting, pre-production, re-writing, shooting and post.... times two. I received over a hundred emails on this subject yesterday. And my iphone got hot enough to make it uncomfortable to put next to my delicate little ears. There are so many decisions to be made. And all of them need to be made NOW! It's daunting to say the least.
But the other side of this is that I am happier then I have been since the birth of my daughter. This is literally what I've been working for (and then some) my entire life. I am overjoyed to have been given this chance and I want so much for it to all work out. I feel like it will too. I feel like this is where I'm supposed to be right now. Well, not RIGHT now. RIGHT NOW I should be in bed, but anxiety awakened me at about 3am and I couldn't get back to sleep. But in terms of the scope of my life, this is an amazing time and I intend to note it.
And I'll be doing all that "noting" right here. It's my intention to keep a blog/journal of the entire process. Warts and all. So please check back often and leave some comments. I need those comments. They're the only way I know I'm alive. :)
Okay... Today's Agenda (Saturday, January 30, 2010): a meeting with the actor/director Ted Wass who we are hoping will direct "This Little Piggy". We're meeting him at 10:30 for some breakfast and delightful chit-chat. Hopefully, by the end of it all, we'll have a director locked down. Plus he was on "Soap" years ago and I loved that show! And he was Blossom's dad... so there's that.
Here we go...
Thanks for reading!
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